now for future reference yes i am a few cards short of a full deck. now with that said I'm not criminally insane but i do have crazy bitch for a mother,no money to my name,no friends,i can barely feel any emotions,I've never known what gilt feel like. but at least i have my ps3,HDTV,and gamefly. god only knows what I might be capable of if ever lost them. hell my mental state would plummet into madness with just about no chance of ever coming back. there i go ranting again like anyone ever cares what i have to say. besides who the fuck is gonna help me? my family oh sure they say they care but i don't believe them. i have no one that i can call friend and that dose hurt. and lets not forget half the time i wounder we'll even have the money for drinking water. all & all i got to say thanks god. i'm willing to bet money that no one will give one fuck about me either way and why should anyone care about me what have i ever done? why do i keep going? what do i have to live for? I truly do not know now i'm gonna go feel miserable until i fall asleep like every night bye y'all.